COLLEGE GRRR /NEG

Am currently applying to a university I'm really interested in but holy poop why is it so hard to write an essay. I'm using chatgpt to like guide me on what  i need to fix because I'm really bad at writing personal essays I'm like way better at persuasive essays. Like i can get a decent score or whatever, im just worried about this essay and if the college admissions people will fw it AND  I FEEL LIKE MY GPA AND SAT SCORE WILL BE DOOKIEEEEEEEE pls carnigie im so shart let me in i can thug it out and shit.