God’s Letter To Mary

Mary, you really have nothing to live for 

I know what you do when you’re alone

You’re always alone 

Nobody else knows, but I do

I know that Mary can buy ecstasy for just five dollars

I know she can get lsd for just three

And I definitely know she wants the seroquel

She can get that only for ten

And I know damn well she needs it

You’re nothing but shit now Mary

You sit on your ass

You eat once a day

You don’t even take care of yourself 

You’ve become real ugly, Mary

One ugly bitch

Your skin is all bubbly and burnt

That’s disgusting

You must feel ashamed when you put that lighter near

Watching your flesh peel and smoke

But I know you don’t, I know it makes you excited

You lick that ash with your finger and do it again

You are absolutely sick, Mary

Sick whore

Ugly whore

Good for nothing whore

You know Mary, I know all your secrets too

I know what you do at night

I know what you do with Ben

I know what you think about

I know what you do

Proves you’re nothing but a fat stupid whore

And I know why you keep this one a secret

John, are you reading this?

Do you want to know what Mary keeps from you?

Do you want to know what keeps Mary so sick?

Don’t you want to laugh at sick Mary?

It’s real funny seeing that bitch cry 

I think you would laugh if you saw her do it

Mary is so fucking desperate 

Mary takes photos 

You would know what kinds of photos

I bet you laughed to those photos too back then

I would laugh too, John

Who gets off to a pig, right? 

Mary takes photos for perverts

Mary likes to pretend she’s an all american blonde

Puts on a skimpy dress and does her makeup

Hides all her burns with black nylon tights

Makes her skin whiter

Makes herself thinner

Mary likes when boys give her attention

She says she hates it, but I know she doesn’t 

I know she looks for it

And she knows that she’s a slut 

But not even Mary can’t stand that 

Mary takes off her dress and cries naked on the floor

Starts burning her legs and arms more and more

Drinks the rest of her tequila and chokes on pills

Then throws up nothing but pure red blood

Hey, do you want to know something else about Mary?

Something really funny, John?

Ben wants to do nasty things to Mary

Ben said he was gonna do something real nasty to her

Said he wants to shut her up 

Keep her still

and put his fluid all over her body

Guess what Mary said

“Oh”

Can you believe it

That nasty bitch

Sick stupid bitch

Cocksucking whore

Only good for a mediocre fuck 

She knows that’s all she’s worth

That’s why Mary wants that ecstasy 

and she’s going to buy a shitload of some 

Mary wants to buy it even more because of one thing

She knows what she’s gonna get when she gets home

On friday evening,

Mary’s dad is gonna beat her senseless

Black and blue

And you know,

Mary sometimes wonders if you would do that to her too

But between me and you, John

You know you want to

You want to beat her dead

You want to leave her on the side of the road

Beaten

Ugly

Broken boned

Skin ripped

And that idiot, how she would let you

But Mary is just gonna do it herself

She’ll find something, anything

She wants to get away

You want to get away, right Mary?

You want to die?

She wants to die

You want to keep doing nasty things Mary?

Make yourself feel good for a single second?

Then go back to crying like the whining bitch you are?

God Mary, all you do is cry

You cry in class

You cry in bed

You cry at night

You cry all the time

You’re annoying Mary

Isn’t she annoying John?

You know Mary

I’m glad you’re gonna die

John is glad you’re gonna die

You want to make John glad don’t you?

Want to see him laugh even if it’s at you?

He’s going to laugh so hard when you’re gone

But you’ll see him smiling

That makes you happy doesn’t it?

The way John smiles?

You’ve been looking at it a lot

You go to bed holding a picture of John

You look into his eyes 

You miss those eyes Mary, I know you do

You miss that smile

And that laughter

You miss John, Mary

He’s not going to come back Mary

John wants Anne-Marie

He doesn’t want you

He wants you dead 

You gave him that mediocre fuck

Then he got bored of you

John lied to you, Mary

and you didn’t even notice

Stupid Mary

Now you’re going to overdose on shit

Pretend John was never lying to you

Pretend he’s there

Holding you

Shushing you

Warming you

Loving you

You’ll never get that again Mary

That is all you want

Love

John’s love 

You’re better off dead, Mary

You’re better off dead