Digtial Diary

Why is it so hard to make friends now...I just want to make friends but its so diffcult to talk to people irl and online - the most embrassing part is that I literally will cry infornt of people beacuse I had to talk to them and I am so scared to ever say anything. I try so hard to make friends irl and online but it feels like no one want to try in friendships anymore, it's like they expect the other person to always text or talk to them without it being a 50/50 relationship and I hate it...☹️ if anyone wants to be my friend pretty please do >.< I swear I'm cool....