was it thhe fear of losing u or my inability 2 handle change

Do you miss me? 

Do I want that?

Do you miss the way I’d laugh 

Or the way I looked at you

Did you notice?

The selfish part of me hopes you do, that you regret it every breath of every second of every day

The part of me that you had to see most days

Brash and unashamed and greedy

So greedy

I started smoking

Did you know?

Is that why you left

Were you afraid, disgusted

Was I too much

Or too little

Do you remember?

Have you stared at pictures of me until you couldn’t anymore

Or cried at the mention 

Of what might have been there

Or might not have been

Do you wonder what went wrong

Lie awake at night, restless

I do not

Only a fool sheds tears over what cannot be altered

Do I occupy your thoughts, the way you do mine?