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killing ms :/ (vent)

no one fxcking appreciates anything i do everything i do is just criticized by others i try my best to be friends with everyone despite my mental condition (social anxiety) but i get nothing in return everyone is just using me. i just got recently diagnosed with a chronic physical condition and i have to take these stupid fvcking meds that make my face fat asf. i hate going out in public im so self-conscious because of it. and people at school also call me names like this one kid called me a chipmunk. my mom told me im going to hell because i wrote a quote by kurt cobain on my converse my mom expects me to do everything and she always guilt-trips and gaslights me into believing things i shouldnt. i love my sister and shi but i dont think she loves me because i always try to comfort her and stuff but she has audhd and i always get scared that she will misinterpret me(and she does) and apparently shes complained about me several times to the school counselor i always try to talk to her in school but she just avoids me like shes embarrassed of me or something. i hate myself and i want to die (nirvana ref) but the only thing keeping me alive rn is music ngl. everyone always finds an excuse to not hang out with me school is just like hell for me ngl our school got a bomb threat today i couldnt take it very srsly because they werent giving us any info abt it (i didnt know at the time if it was a drill or real)and i heard people sh-t talking me???? i hate when my friends call me a girl and use she/her prns one of them said "yes girlie!! :D" I HATE IT. IM NOT A FUCKING GIRL. i hate my chest so much why do i look like this gender is too complicated for me i know im genderfluid but sometimes it just makes me so stressed to think about gender sometimes


thx 4 listening to my lil vent/rant :3


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Ace

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Aw i’m sorry about all that :( i totally get hating being seen as fem. Music being important to you is so based ngl (three days grace my beloved). If you need to yap i’m here :)


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allan!!!!! ^_^

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you can always talk to me abt it if you need :<


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୭ৎ ꒱ C!FUNDY

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hawk tuah lil bro hawk tuah


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hawk tuah lil bro hawk tuah

by Izzy; ; Report

HAWK TUAH

by ୭ৎ ꒱ C!FUNDY; ; Report

wow dude ur so funny /sarc

by mel; ; Report

who r u im not even talking to u ???? why r u butting in

by ୭ৎ ꒱ C!FUNDY; ; Report

so wtf did you comment on my VENT post saying fucking hawk tuah? like your making me giggle and shit rn hahahha /sarc

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