Entry 5

 Shits not going well on my end.

 My beloved cat of 20 years just passed away, my mother blamed me for 'not being able to save her' despite the fact that there was nothing I could do to keep her alive. 

 School starts tomorrow, and I don't want to start college three years early. Like, at all.

 There's really not anything worth living for. At this point I just live for my obsessions, it's miserable.