I feel rlly guilty

--- Not me a grown person vagueing on my guilt on the net on a fine Monday morning!! here we go

My best fren ever, who I once thought I had a crush on but it just turns out I process platonic affection rlly differently due to neglect and abandonment, HAS FINALLY FOUND "the one"!!!

Actually been been but this economy/panorama situation did what it did and so they are now getting married.  Issue is she moved like years ago, and I am not a financially mobile person bc my house is in an eternal state of limbo, one of my jobs had to close, I am part of the Ren Fest this year in my state, and also I hate taking planes.

She wants me to go to dollywood 4 the bachelorette?  like right before the fest, and it really has me nervous.  I also don't like small kids and this seems like a park for under 14s  (Whatever age kids stop screeching at, or trying to kill themselves bc parents are rlly neglectful)

I am going to the wedding for sure! I am open to going to dollywood but tbh that is a huge expense for me....  and I am worried ill get stuck and miss the first weekend of ren, which means ill get in trouble with me boss....

I want to support my fren but I just dont got it like that .....  If the trip was AFTER Ren i'd even have the money!!  fkjhsdfkjhsdfkh UHG