Vent?..Vent!

OH MY GOD. I'm currently dual enrolled into a college, and the classes are kicking my ass! I'm trying so hard and am doing my work and somehow I'm still behind! This is so frustrating.... Sometimes I regret dual enrolling, not because its hard....okay maybe a little...but its mostly cause I miss my friends, I made a friend or two in college but we are definitely not close and still mask (I think that's the right term) around them, its exhausting. And what's worse is that due to some drama with my childhood friend's (J) mom I cant talk them outside at schools at all. And not to sound jealous or insecure or whatever but "J" is also dating my other friend (we're a trio) and they tend to spend most of their time together, excluding me. And I get wanting to spend time with your partner, that's great an all, but I'm starting to feel excluded and kinda lonely... Last year I had 1 class each where it was just one of them so I still got to spend some time with each of them but now I barely do and it kinda sucks...

Sorry I didn't mean to vent, honestly as you can tell this was originally meant to be about my dual enrollment so thats my bad