dream journal (6 dreams added so far)

finally starting this after like a month, i will add my most stand out, weird and traumatizing dreams to this, cause what. thge fuck. (and i'll add more as time passes) a tw in general bc my brain creates the most horrifying shit ever. this is in no order of when i had them, just what pops into my head first.

this was when milton was still really bad. but since i was so paranoid and hyperfocused on natural disasters that my brain js had to have a dream abt one. it was js at my old childhood apartment w really bad weather LOLLL. (south africa doesnt get bad disasters like at all,, i js have this existencial dread that the world is ending.)

anyways, after that i was in the car w my mom, sibling and grandfather (in our usual spots. me in shotgun, my mom driving and my sibling behind me, grandfather behind my mom) and it was a really bendy road. so a ton of sharp turns and shit. while it was pouring w rain.

and while my mom was talking abt something to me she wouldnt look at the road. AT ALL. so id freak out and be like "hey.. the road??? mom?!?!?" shed fucking laugh at me as if i was crazy (and js make fun of me not wanting to die) and then as we're abt to crash she'd turn and we'd be fine.

but for the last turn there was a ton of dirt for construction or smth. but we didnt end up turning. and went into this small ditch like hole. like yk when the hill is carved out for a building and theres still space between the hill and the wall? yeah. we went into that. the car kept sinking into that small space and collapsing in on itself. w us inside,,,, and i could feel my legs being crushed. even when i woke up, my legs still felt weird.

sebastian from pressure trying to kill me. thats literally it LMAOOO

i tell this one a lot whenever i can, bc it started off at a mall and i was in a fnaf map??? w my bf LMAO. but eventually we were allowed to leave, and he wondered off. i found my bsf and we were walking around until we found our old 2022 friend group (the mall was L shaped?? and had a small room at the end of the long hallway, w shelves and clothing racks.) 

we sat down and relaxed for a bit before my bsf said that security breach freddy was at the end of the short hallway, and i said go look??? or smth. he comes charging down the hall but passes us, but a group of POLAR BEARS???!?! comes down the hall, and we're js chilling. i back up into the shelves like under it?? to hide. i am NOT messing w polar bears.

 but this one girl in our group is antagonizing it and it literally took a second for it to bite her arm off. i could hear and see everything. the screams, the bones and flesh,,, and it was too realistic. YUCK. anyways. i cant remember the rest,,

this is a more recent one, after a big hyper focus on my special interest (psychology behind cannibalism) so ofc my brain js HAD to make something based off what i learnt that day.(tw.)

 i was at a mix of my bsfs and my old house?? idk. and my bsf was over, we were abt to watch a movie w my mom and my younger sibling. we sat on the couch and my mom put on smth idk what it was, but literally as i look at the screen its some lady having her friend over (it felt like it was based inthe 80's cause of the style and hair,,) shes making some casserole dish(?) but shes like "wait, its missing something!" and then proceeds to cut herself open and use her own flesh to put into the dish. WHAT. 

but it doesnt stop there. her guest CANNOT control herself bc she practically pounces at the host and starts eating her flesh raw. what. the. fuck. so i look at my mom bc??? theres a 12 yr old watching??? (my sibling) AND my friend and i???? WHY WOULD YOU PUT THIS ON???? but shes so locked into watching, and so is my sibling/??/?? WHAT??? so i look to my bsf and shes js GONE. okay. great. im alone in this house of weirdos. and i look back to the tv to see what looks like a skinless corpse. most likely the host. and then i wake up 😀.

this was from i think 2022, it was at my old house in the bathroom. it was modeled a bit differently, but i was in the tub, back to the wall and right next to the door to my right. 

i js couldnt look there, it was dark. and creepy. idk why i was in the tub tbh. but i heard whispering so OFC i turn to look. and theres this creepy long black haired thing. corpse? ghost? I DONT KNOW.

 but it kept on repeating stuff along the lines of "i know what you did." and shit like that. oh. WHAT DID I DO??? I. DONT. KNOW. so im literally hyperventilating in the tub, staring at this rotting thing, js crawling towards me. uttering shit abt what i did. and then i woke up! how lovely.

i dont remember when this was, maybe like 2 months ago,, idk if it was during a sleepover w my bsf or it was js a random night. but i dont remember the beginning part of my dream. at all. but ik it changed to this hospital like backrooms????

 idk. but i was js walking around, trying to find my way, yk. i get to this bathroom type place and i see an exit in the next room. yay! but i look into the room and theres a bed?? and it looks like smth is getting FREAKY IN THE BED. ew. so i slide against the wall to not be noticed and to get out??? BUT. my pov changes AND IM ON THE FUVKIGN BED NOW. WHAT. I WAS ABT TO GET TOUCHED. NO. NUH UH. so i forced myself awake.

rlly short bit that i remember, but that stuck w me.

this one is from like 2021 but its literally js me entering my jjk hyperfixation that has lasted 3 years. and i became itadori (foreshadowing) and was chilling w megumi and gojo yay. but then i swapped out w sukuna and js started flying. literally like flying around a minecraft world. thats it. and gojo tried catching me?? LMAOOOO.