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Been inactive for like a thousand yearz. Recently I lost all of my old blogs on another website as well so I should just start blogging here b3cause everything good is just getting deleted. Real lame.

Literally having the worst creative block of my lyfe rn1! Can't do art, write, or listen to any good music without getting completely snuffed. I have a bomb oc story basically complete yk all that and a bag of chps. Medieval, futuristic, apocalyptic, and vampires??? All of the things!!1! But I literally can't progress it any further. Every story scenario is a dead end. Much lameness. And then I go to my playlist to find music for inspiration. Lately I've been playing Everything is alright by motion city soundtrack on repeat and frankly I can only replay the Same plot point so many times before I just get frustrated.

I try to talk to literally anyone and they are all just so uninterested in evrything. Tired of people only being into the most mainstream things. I like the mainstream but sometimes I just want to meet someone who BLOWS MAH MIND!!! knamean? Not even talking about old fandoms like Homestuck or Johnny the homicidal maniac. That's some good old shiz but I want some new crack lol. I need a muse or something X|. ALso I'm cool with teens getting into things but at the end of the day I'm an adult so I'm not really interested in getting cozy with young peeps. Like I fuck with young artists and kids getting into cool old interests I'm just sad that they end up dominating every space now. It's like once you reach a certain age you go into digital hiding or something?

Not in the sense that they stop posting completely but just seem to lose all interests and personality. My job or education has never stopped me from liking things completely. I'll say once I got into a serious relationship with someone who didn't have their childish interests anymore and embraced modernity I lost a lot of my sparkles. I just ended up talking about it so much less because it made a really one sided boring conversation. I still haven't lost those things that made me m e though. Maybe when older people get shut down so many times they lose interest. Do we bully older people out of their personalities? It surely can't be maturing. I mean things like art and music aren't considered inherently immature are they?

IDK pretty depressing thoughts on the state of creativity for adults.