my first post

Romantic souls   <---- blingee I made (~￣³￣)~

I have really enjoyed making blingees lately. I am still unemployed and it's not the most fulfilling thing to do but I do have fun making them. I have made more and plan to post them, as long as this post is successful.

I am happy to make this my first post, but I think I will make one that represents me more visually and internally.  My hope is to make like minded friends who enjoy music, the macabre, and movies while here. 

personal life update for anyone who is nosey or cares:

After being diagnosed with bipolar 2 two months ago I have had a hard time accepting it. I really don't want to attach myself to those feelings anymore, I feel really alone and I sometimes wish for a better way out. But, I live to see if things do eventually get better so, we ballin'. I am on a mood stabilizer and so far it is going very well. My emotional outbursts have minimized significantly, compared to having them daily, I only have 2-3 a month now. I am impressed with how quickly the medication is working.  What I struggle with the most about experiencing bipolar 2 is knowing who i am, like two different viruses that share the same host. I don't know if the regular, controlled self is me, or is the cynical, misanthropic, depression ball who I really am? This is the struggle. 

be back soon

xo

dottie