thoughts/philosophy

Talk to yourself. The only time it doesn't matter what you sound like is when no one is listening. kill your inner critic and enjoy the company of yourself.

Labels are for you not me. I carry labels to help you understand me but they have long since outlived their usefulness in helping me understand myself.

The prey was afraid when it killed the predator. The oppressed were afraid when they overcame their oppressors. The parent was afraid when they protected their child. Fear is a weapon. Bravery is wielding it. Don't let it incapacitate you. 

My village left me cold but rather than burn it down I let them set me ablaze to feel warmth.

All roads lead away from Rome too.

I can't be happy because happiness is an emotion. It passes. I can't be good because I have done too much wrong. I sought joy and goodness but they are unattainable. There are so many things that I still can be. I'll start with interesting. 

I'm as real as fiction. a book in your hand is real your experience reading the words is real and I am the same. A story.

When there are no rabbits left to follow grab a shovel.

If I was different I would be loved. If people loved me for being different I wouldn't love them. If I was different I wouldn't be me. I don't want to be alone. I am alone. I don't want to be different. I don't want to be loved. I can't love. I can't be loved.