L8 nite thought, really retarded!

This is going to sound so stupid, maybe it might not make sense 

But do you sometimes hate praise for things you did?

I get called a hero ALL the damn time! And sure, whatever, it's flattering, but i can't help but always feel like im still at fault.

Nene and Darnell always tell me how amazing i was for "Saving the school" but how can you feel like you saved everyone if you let so many fly away?

Is this what peter parker feels like? If so, I'd rather kill myself. I should ask Nene her favorite techniques!

Or not ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯