July 4, 2024

Here I am again, for the first time. The school year is over just in the middle of my life. I feel two years older but one year more naive. What did I win? I would say nothing but I guess I did. I have this awesome friend who never answers my call and this other friend who is just really my friend. I keep this older one a bit to far away from me, I think we are running out of time and the reserves we made for the next summer. 

I almost hit the bottom but i didn’t. I still feel hungry about it. I guess is just the need to get worse until I root. But I’m not even enough for that.

I think i disappointed someone, and now he’s going to leave forever. No time for me anymore to prove that I can do much more than I did.

Now I’m here sitting in the school’s floor, all alone just like in the beginning, in this day dedicated to the failed.