yippee

• Jun 19 2024 •

 so the psyche eval was rly stressful and boring but i'm on mood stabilizers now so that's good, today is my first day taking them so idk how well they work yet- some of the possible side affects are a bit scary to think about but they're only possible so there's no guarantee I'll get them. i'm mostly just worried that they either won't do anything or my nightmares will get worse bc that's a possibility and i already have enough of those- let's hope for the best though.

 oh yeah the psyche eval- i didn't get any solid like on paper diagnosis but the doctor guy said i definitely have bipolar (probably type 2 but possibly not) and most likely have borderline as well. also apparently i already have a ptsd diagnosis so that's fun.

 other than the stress and nightmares almost every night this week things are going alright, i'm pretty excited for this weekend, i'm going over to my girlfriends house and we'll be hanging out at a friend's place to swim and stuff, we also planned to see a movie together so that's fun- we still haven't decided what movie to see though lol- 

 idrk what else to write about but over all, some shit sucks but i think I'll be alright. i have a tendency to indulge into my negativity a lot but i think i'm gonna try not to do that so much- a lot of the time i can't really help it but i'm gonna try to focus on positives and grounding myself when i start spiraling and the meds will probably help. i'll still update with random life stuff when i feel like it, hopefully it'll be mostly more positive things but i'll probably still end up dumping my vents on here too lol-

until next time

xoxo -ScrCrssdLvr