intro survey with the OG

"35 Questions" from Marcel Proust

1) WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS?

I think it’s knowing your reason(s) to live or creating one, and being completely satisfied and resolved with it.

2) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?

Getting tortured/raped and killed without being found or getting justice.

3) WHAT TRAIT DO YOU MOST DEPLORE IN YOURSELF?

My tendency to devote my life to anyone who seems to care about me. That resulted in a bunch of betrayals and abandonment issues.

4) WHAT TRAIT DO YOU MOST DEPLORE IN OTHER PEOPLE?

Ignorance, callousness, prejudice.

5) WHAT LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST ADMIRE?

Markiplier, he's a cool guy

6) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST EXTRAVAGANCE?

Cool hoodies, t-shirts and classic books.

7) WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT STATE OF MIND?

Depressed, lonely, suicidal, desperate for any kind of euphoria.

8) WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER THE MOST OVERRATED VIRTUE?

Virginity.

9) ON WHAT OCCASION DO YOU LIE?

When the truth would just hurt the person I’m telling it to or turn out really bad for me.

10) WHAT DO YOU MOST DISLIKE ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE?

Probably my glasses when they make my nose look big or eyes look small, and my smile.

11) WHAT LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST DESPISE?

All child abusers, especially those who get away with it.

12) WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU LIKE MOST IN A MAN?

Loyalty, kindness, respect.

13) WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU LIKE MOST IN A WOMAN?

Kindness, honesty, strength (any form).

14) WHICH WORDS OR PHRASES DO YOU MOST OVERUSE?

“like”, “uhh / um”, emoticons/kaomojis, “cool”, “super _”, "_ or something".

15) WHAT OR WHO IS THE GREATEST LOVE OF YOUR LIFE?

My boyfriend was.

16) WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU HAPPIEST?

Amusement park a few days ago, I think. It was my first time going there.

17) WHICH TALENT WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO HAVE?

Playing the electric guitar, or telling good stories.

18) IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Being either more self-sufficient, talented or productive.

19) WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT?

Almost winning a national spelling bee, I think. (My partner screwed up the last word.)

Topping all of my english classes in every grade.

Jumping off the building of my shitty school.

20) IF YOU WERE TO DIE AND COME BACK AS A PERSON OR A THING, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Cat!!!

21) WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO LIVE?

I wanna live in Canada, it’s really beautiful and the people are nice, plus free healthcare.

22) WHAT IS YOUR MOST TREASURED POSSESSION?

My laptop, my ukulele, my books and my paper cutter knife that’s shaped like a cat’s paw.

23) WHAT DO YOU REGARD AS THE LOWEST DEPTH OF MISERY?

Going through a difficult situation with no support, no hope and no reason to persevere.

24) WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE OCCUPATION?

Reading a good book or playing a fun game.

25) WHAT IS YOUR MOST MARKED CHARACTERISTIC?

Nice academic reputation, idrk.

26) WHAT DO YOU MOST VALUE IN YOUR FRIENDS?

Loyalty, kindness, willingness to feed me snacks and NOT finding the worst possible times to randomly abandon me without explanation.

27) WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE WRITERS?

Fyodor Dostoevsky, Osamu Dazai, George Orwell, Viktor Frankl, Franz Kafka.

28) WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE HERO OF FICTION?

Hank J Wimbleton from Madness Combat. He’s cool ( •̀ ◟•́ )✧ 

(and probably doesn’t really count as a “hero”… but one-sided "good guys" are dumb :P )

29) WHICH HISTORICAL FIGURE DO YOU MOST IDENTIFY WITH?

I think Dazai?

30) WHO ARE YOUR HEROES IN REAL LIFE?

Frankl and Dostoevsky.

Otherwise it’s hard to consider real people heroes.

31) WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE NAMES?

Most Japanese names? After browsing r/tragedeigh, my standards are really not that high.

32) WHAT IS IT THAT YOU MOST DISLIKE?

Seemingly kind or genuine people turning out to be assholes.

33) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST REGRET?

Giving valuable time to people who don’t care if I live or die. Yeah, quoted The Smiths.

34) HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?

Overdosing, shooting myself or hanging myself at either 18 or 27 after building a successful music career, possibly on a livestream as a political statement or something.

If I find a significant other, something painless and poetic like drowning myself at a beach with them while holding hands, or dying in their arms while they comfort me.

35) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Personality’s too boring to have one :P