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• Apr 24 2024 •
im bored and tired as usual, i have nothing cool to blog about lol i just like rambling on the internet where no one will see it i guess- my insomnia has been so bad i genuinely feel like I'm turning into the narrator from fight club- what's sleep? what's memory? what's reality? who needs them? not me apparently lol- i rly do tho i feel like I'm losing my mind like this, i keep going between a state of doom and existential dread and just like peace and calmness idk- i used to exist like this constantly and be fine but it's been years since it was normal for me and i think I've forgotten how to ignore the growing ache of existing this way
whoops started getting a little deep there bud back it up
uuuhhhhhhhh anyways life stuff ! i haven't really been up to much of anything, I've had the same routine for almost a year now which is just bed rotting until the weekend when i hang out with my partner and then guess what we do more bed rotting! crazy right??
I'm kind of sick of routine but it's not like i can do much else being physically and mentally disabled, i know there's hobbies and pastimes and stuff but I've been too tired and unmotivated to really indulge in any of that, all I've really been able to do outside of the basic stuff is occasionally go on walks at the park i live by, but even that has been getting tiring and overwhelming.
wow i just can not talk about anything positive huh?
god I'm annoying lol-
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Ashley Alias
Yeahhh.....
you could try taking a day or two off work, maybe use a sick day, and just drive into the woods or desert (depending on where you are). stare into the quiet night for a while. look at the stars. revel in the silence.
Its not gonna much, but it'll do something! its a break from routine, strange as it is. might do some good.
honestly probably not gonna be too good for you, but like... doesn't hurt that much to try.
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i would but i can't drive lol- also currently don't have a job so I'm pretty much entirely stuck in my little town unless i make plans with someone else. that does sound nice though
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