April 22, 2024

Oh well dear…

I miss you so much (more than you can imagine). I miss doing those paper planes for you, cause you never learned how, I miss laughing with you when there was nothing else/left to do, I miss the stupid things you wrote in my arms,I miss when you messed up the fuckin projects (you know you did), I miss your bad jokes and I wish I could remember your laugh, I miss dropping my most deadly lines and you acted like it was a normal thing and that play that you wrote and I used to hate.

I know I left you down so many times and how you felt left out, but I want you to know that you were always my most important thing. I know there’s things we could never talk about, maybe we didn’t trusted each other that much, I know I was a bad friend (believe me I know I was).

But I’m so sorry, I’m sorry that I left you down, I’m sorry that I never gave you the time, and I’m so sorry that you always thought I rather be with someone else than you.

I miss you so much, and it makes me mad/sad that you don’t miss me at all. I know you look better now (i just know it) and that you felt in love with someone who kinda looks like me (but I know I just love you as a friend and that you do the same).

I know there’s a chance that you’ll read this, but I know you won’t. But if you do… take this as an apology letter.

I wish you were here D.