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This is my first time writing on here and i've joined like today and im kinda bored and want to yapp for a bit :)
SO BASICALLY I fell out with a couple of my frineds and it was a shity fall out, like it was messy and a lot of people got like emotionally hurt and it didn't go well, that was months ago. However some of my friends like to go back to the person all of us fell out with and now they hang with them and i've only got my only other friend that is not hanging out with them and we hang out together instead. But the thing is, I'm feeling lonely. I don't go out anymore like I used to with my now ex friends. and my other friends that i still have are most of the time busy or just can't come out during the weekends. Like I only have one normal friend basically now and that's it, but that one friends has also other friends that sometimes hangs out with and I'm just basically lonely and have no one at this point.Also another awful thing is that my birthday is in May and in May its the exam season and all of my remaining friends have exams so I will have to celebrate my birthday all by myself (literally crying inside). I only have like 2 months of before school officially finishes for me and then i go off to college and i'm going to be ALL BY MYSELF. Like I was lonely for most of my highschool years and I didnt have any friends then until I joined a big friend group and now I fell out of it, but the thing is that the friends I was with they have known each other for years and I just would always feel left out I felt like I didn't belong being there. AND IT ALSO DOESN'T HELP THAT A FEW FRIENDS IVE GOT LEFT ARE ARSEHOLES AND LITERALLY SO ANNOYING AND I CAN'T BE BOTHERED CUTTING THE OFF BECAUSE THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE FRIENDS TO TALK TOO AT PROM. LET ME OUT!!!!!! LET ME LIVE PLS FOR ONCE I FUCKING HATE BEING LONELY!! I just want to live peacefully and actually have friends that aren't always negative about everything and always either insult me or each other and it's just toxic and fucking annoying.
AND ALSO MY OTHER TWO FRIENDS WERE OUT AT A HOUSE PARTY WITH THE PERSON ALL OF US FELL OUT WHILE IM LITERALLY ROTTING INSIDE MY HOUSE AND I FEEL MISERABLE ~_~
At this point may God take me away up to great heavens. I NEED OUT
probably no one is going to read this but i hope you have fun reading about my little venting session xoxo ;)
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Neptune
Well college can be scary bcs its a new place whn you will know no one, but it also applies not only for you, but mostly for the others too! So it will be a great opportunity to have New friends and people to talk.
thanks for replying and also thanks for that comment:)! I do look forward to meeting new friends when I go off to college but I'm a bit scared to talk to people sometimes cause I'm introverted and don't talk to people that much and also not sure how to start conversation, I suppose everyone has to sometimes get out their comfort zone.
by Fly4waySkyl4rk; ; Report
Yeah its okay, even if you dont know where to start conversation just say hi and ask simple questions, like how are they, whats their name, why they choose this college, what do they like and etc!
by Neptune; ; Report
But also, dont try push yourself too much to be with friends that you dont like, if you just dont having fun, dont like spending time with them, its not really worth it
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