FLESHY BONE CANDY

FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS MY EMOTIONS HAVE BEEN HAYWIRE. NEARLY EVERY SINGLE MOMENT CAUSES SOME SORT OF STREAM OF FEELING TO ERUPT FROM MY CORE. IT FLUSHES THROUGH EVERY INCH OF FLESH THAT COATS MY SKELETON AND THOUGH IT HAPPENS SO OFTEN IT SCARES ME EVERY TIME. MY MOTHER HAS ALWAYS BOUGHT MY SISTER AND I VALENTINE'S DAY GIFTS NO MATTER HOW OLD WE ARE. SEEING THAT GIFT ON THE COUNTERTOP WHEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNING SENT A MESSAGE DIRECTLY TO MY SKULL WHICH BROUGHT ABOUT THE CIRCULATION. MY EYES ARE WET AND MY SOUL IS DRY. WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH? ONE DAY I WILL BE ABLE TO LAUNCH MYSELF INTO SPACE AND FIND A WORLD APPROPRIATE FOR ME, BUT UNTIL THEN I SHALL SIT AND STARE. SIT AND STARE. SIT AND STARE.