Why must I ALWAYS talk about gender?

Of course, I hyper-fixate on my identity as a queer person, I am a transgender girl in want/in need of transitioning.

Personal expression of my own preferences are not only aesthetic choices, but a physiological necessity as evidenced by my seeking of psychiatric help in getting through my depression due to my parents exerting control over my gender expressions.

The task of liberating myself so I may satisfy my need to transition into a more feminine gender role is currently the primary contradiction in my life and I am willing to wager, has been the similar experiences of many a transgender person.

While I do identify as a bakla, I identify as the more feminine kind of bakla. The one who moves through the world as if she is a woman. That is the kind of bakla I want to be, the kind of bakla I need to be and as such, it is only natural that it is the thing that occupies my mind most.

Until now, it is the most consequential thing in my life setting itself more important than even my academics and in turn, my economic future. For what is the use of a financially-prosperous future if I must live it out within the confines of a psychological disorder?