Some teaaaaa and also i need some outside opinions

Hi bunniesss!!^^ 

So imma tell you some tea, its not super hot but if you have nothing to do, welcome!

So i have a problem with this girl, who used to be my friend. Lets call her Susan oki? 

So susan and I met because we were in the same class and quickly became friends because we were like the outsiders in our class, for the whole past year we were close friends, she invited me to sleepovers ( i couldnt go bc i got a latina mother " and we never know"), to her birthday and i became friend w her friends. So thats it, very nice and everything but even during the friendship she wasnt all that extremely nice yk? Like let's say, in a school trip to amsterdam me and my crush became real close and when i was talking about it because well i liked him a lot she would say yeah maybe he just wants to speak spanish ( me and my crush speak only in spanish most of the time) and did all those comments most of the time, at that moment her and her crush were not having the best time tbh, and its not only that because okay i could get why she did that but during the same trip she started ignoring me out of nowhere and said it was because of my jokes, i tend to joke about my traumas but didnt do it as much ( nearly never ) with her bc i knew she didnt like it. And for some other record we would always do what she wanted like if i wanted to go to the park and she wanted to go to the mall we would end up going to the mall because she will get all cold and shit. Also she would try and bring me down like if i got a better grade she would said its not fair and its not even that good of a grade. Well i stayed besides her and if something bothered me i would shut tf up because well she was my friend. 

Anyways starting this school year we were okay, like always and everything but around october my cousin who doesnt speak french came into my school and ofc i spent more time with her but i didnt stop talking to Susan at all like she would sit next to our other friend in the class and we would be like a group of four. But she started to get cold with me and eventually ignore me and obviouly i was like super super sad so i went to talk with her like "girlie pop whats going on?? youre my friend we can talk this out" and ( im going to synthetize what she said) she said her she was mad that i didnt tell her that my cousin would come and i will sit next to her, when i infact did it 2 weeks prior, and i mean its obvious im sitting w her right??? and she also said like her aunt opened her eyes (susan's) and she realized that her social life cant revolve around a single person, when most of the time i told her if you wanna go sit next to someone else just tell me bc it doesnt bother me ( i'm very much an introvert, i like being alone in my little corner) and i told her that. She also said that it was hard for her because she grew up wiith people around her and personally i would always maintain me far away of big groups. So she told me she needed time to think and see the friendship from the outside. That in my country at least mean like leave alone for some time. 

Well i thaked her for being my friend and excused myself for any trouble i might have caused her because i know how this ends yk it will never be the same.

So like a week later she sends mea message saying like you only used le not to feel alone. 

And girlies (and boiii or just people) I was so freaking angry i wanted to cry because why the fuck will she say that when i thought she was my only friend. And i explained to her that many thing i did for her i wouldnt do for people who arent my friend. And besides ive been raised with the mindset of " better off alone than with bad friends"and she said "well youre not alone now"(i grew closer with the mutual friend wehad in the class and with other people in the class). I ended up telling her that we had to talk irl. ( this was around the 12/12/23)

*time jump* we are now in new year she wishes ut to me with the sentence "even tho we're having a hard time now " . So i reply that we can still talk it out and ask her if shes okay. 

She replies with like a ive been better and i asked why and she said some health issues and shes not getting along with the class like she tought she would and thats when i realized taht bloody heel she was the one using me!

but idk what do you all think??

i must say that yess im not the angle in the story and ive also made mistakes but here i think i did the best i could