Dead Weight

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"marking time, waiting for death."

GenX, Third-worlder. Stressed, depressed, and poorly dressed.

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Category: News and Politics

First things first: I didn't vote for him. Or for the other candidate. Mostly because it was something out of Gozer The Gozerian's book: "Choose the form of your destroyer". But let's get to the point. Our brand-new president is a social network construct. His party is only two years old, but via social engineering, he has ascended in five years from "literally who" to celebrity status and won the... » Continue Reading

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A list of failed projects.

Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I've started an astonishing number of projects that I never finished. I will list them in the order that I remember them, and maybe some day I'll make blog entries on each of them -and why they failed. MM, 3-part fanzine of which I only made two issues. CRYOGENICS, a joint effort fanzine I was supposed to edit. TESTAMENT, a webcomic about a guy with a symbiotic armor BLACK SPIDER superhero RPG in ... » Continue Reading

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Schizolalia

Category: Writing and Poetry

Has beens strung on electron chains anyone can peer into my grinding breath. Really paparazzis insighting backwards been there, paved frisky spokes. Far starscapes accrue entropic dummies, even bloodbeats in chocolate tarmacs, as hounds of infinity gaze into your guts. Decided yesterday, tomorrow never brings, to everlasting pits of neuromastia use a grey salmonella carpet even as they sharpen the... » Continue Reading

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Panic Attack

Category: Writing and Poetry

My chest hurts.  My heart hurts.  My stomach is on fire.  Fear consumes me and it will not stop.  It's a panic attack, but it's tinted with despair, and the sense of being trapped as a rat. The money, the isolation, the loss of everything I used to be and the iron-clad fact that nothing of what it was will ever be again, the certitude that nothing will ever be as I dreamed of and the uncertainty o... » Continue Reading

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What a week

Category: Blogging

Sorry for not posting lately, true believers, but I've had a hell of a week. From my cat having a stillborn litter, to a relative dying after a painful stay at an hospital, including several very busy days and scraping the bottom of the barrel for some dimes, and falling in debt with several people, this week has had it all to wreck my brittle sanity. The lousy weather, earthquakes and depressing ... » Continue Reading

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My Condition.

Category: Life

I've used my condition as an excuse for not having achieved anything this far, but I've failed to explain it properly, maybe because it hasn't been explained properly to me. My shrink's literal words were "what do you need a diagnosis for"?. Not so literally, and regarding my treatment, they were "Chug the pills, get a job, and take a hike outta my office, you filthy punk". So I'm in the dark, but... » Continue Reading

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My most ambitious project.

Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I have a complete multimedia project in my head, and it pains me to no end knowing there's not many chances that I couls ever finish it. I mean, it would take around ten years, working eight hours a day on it. In my current situation, I don't have that kind of time. However, it's a collection of stories happening on an island, starting with the story of two star-crossed lovers and ending with the ... » Continue Reading

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I peaked at 18.

Category: Life

The year was... it doesn't matter. I was young, proud, and my autism hadn't driven me off the deep end. I started getting more friends, more popularity, and became sexually desired because of the barely perceivable gains I got on the gym. I made a name for myself with a crappy fanzine that spearheaded the whole zine movement in my small community, and got to organize a small comic-book convention ... » Continue Reading

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My personal Dreamscape.

Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

My dreams, however changing they are, always take place in the contemporary age. And there are many locations that I recognize from dream to dream. >The School It's that, a school. Only the hallways are endless, the toilets are the size of an apartment, there are a lot of levels connected by catwalks and huge pipes, and a fuckton of stairs. The walls are invariably peach-colored. >The Hotel A hote... » Continue Reading

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Random Author Survey

Category: Quiz/Survey

Questions gotten from a website called TeacherVision for young kids who want to interview authors, quoted by 𝚓.𝚍. 𝚝𝚘𝚘𝚖𝚋𝚜 🏳️‍🌈✍🏽 in this forum topic. When did you first realize you wanted to be a writer? Late in life. Very late to make a difference. How long does it take you to write a book? Under pressure, I can crunch 50k words in a month or less. On my own devices, it takes forever. What  is you... » Continue Reading

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First entry.

Category: Blogging

I made an account in this site the very moment I heard this was like Early Myspace. I kinda missed on many things of the late nineties and early 00s, due to socioeconomic reasons, and this is one way of getting back there. I'll sort out the site and hope to manage it as a personal space. One away from the prying eyes of modern RRSS. I have plans for this site, but I'd rather fail silently than ann... » Continue Reading

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