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entry-9

Category: Life

april 28th, 2024 my mom hasn't tried to reach out at all in like 2 months and I thought it didn't bother me at first but I think now that I just don't like to feel hurt because I feel like a fool  I didn't talk to my mother for a very long time and just over this past year we were actually having conversations and improving our relationship I just don't like the fact that she thinks she can decide... » Continue Reading

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entry-8

Category: Life

april 25th, 2024 I need a breath of fresh air something sudden and unexpected to make me feel like life is worth living, not even on any su1c1d4l stuff, I don't wanna km$ but like I feel hallow like there's nothing in me, I wish I could hibernate  there are things I like and there are things I want to do, but I want to want things so bad that I strive for them and have passion for something so imm... » Continue Reading

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entry-7

Category: Life

april.23, 2024 a lot has happened but idek if I want to go into detail atm I still think about the same person every day and everyday I tell myself I don't care in hopes i'll believe it, but I know that's far from the truth. so I keep making decisions i'm unhappy with hoping it will force me to move forward(it never does) I know how it looks and may be confusing but I don't see a point in explaini... » Continue Reading

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entry-6

Category: Life

April 8th, 2024 I love waking up and sm0king out of my b0ng by my window in the morning, the sunlight hits through my blinds just right at certain times  :))  I love that I wake up early because nobody is really awake and the internet feels more empty which I like and I hate being alone but I just enjoy my own company better in the morning I think. There's supposed so be some sort of eclipse and l... » Continue Reading

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entry-5

Category: Life

April 7th 2024  hai ermmm ik I haven't written here in a while, i've been getting crunk LOL nah but fr I saw black kray the other day and it was a great night I had so much funnn, we drank before we went in too so yk we were having a blast, we smoked after the show and my friends dropped me off, sober me cleaned my bed off so when I came home I crashed tf outttt at like 2am I have prom soon which ... » Continue Reading

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entry-4

Category: Life

March. 17th, 2024- 7:36pm I haven't been home in like two days so I haven't been able to write at all sadly, I'm finally back tho loll.  I went downtown today because there was hella vendors, I was with my cousin but she kinda had to ditch me mid way through.  I don't blame her though, we just accidentally miscommunicated. It was kinda hot and I was already tweaked out because I saw someone there ... » Continue Reading

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entry-3

Category: Life

March 16th, 2024- 12.10AM I've been debating on going to sleep for the past three hours but I still can't seem to get myself to.  My mind has been racing every minute of every hour because for some reason everything reminds me of him.  I've tried to convince myself hundreds of times that someone will be willing to love me and I, be willing to receive and give that back.  But I never quite believe ... » Continue Reading

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entry-2

Category: Life

I have a job interview today and i'm so anxious it's not even funny, I threw up twice already from the anxiety.  I'm hopeful I might get the job though because my hmg referred me, but turns out her other coworker did too so now I rlly gotta make ts good... I'm mostly nervous because this is my first time having an interview and I have rlly bad anxiety and i'm not good at talking lol but I got this... » Continue Reading

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entry-1

Category: Life

I think i'm gonna start journaling on here, so here's my first entry.. March 13th 2024 any words I form aloud would be far too simple for the weight of what it was. hopefully writing it out helps me piece it together lol.  I woke up about an hour ago and my brain is eating at me so I'm gonna journal lol. Your in my dreams damn near every night (I wish I was joking), most times I don't remember wha... » Continue Reading

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