oh my god today's the day

(if you're a random stopping by seeing my blog on the main page, don't mind me lol im rambling) 

IM MOOVVVINGGGGGG ITS TODDAYYYYYYYYY

driving across the country in my run down beat up 30 year old 1994 camry LMFAOOO i spent all day yesterday packing everything in it and almost broke my back

just got off the phone with my grandpa that bastard dosent give a damn im leaving, called me to ask if it was true, i said yes, and then he told me best of luck and if things go to shit to join the military... man whatever

maya, one of my friends from middleschool, probably like 7th or 8th grade pulled up while i was sitting in a parking lot mid joint with my sister in the car lmaoooo i had my foot sitting out the window on the mirror LMAOO I didnt realize it was them pulling up until jada walked up and i saw her making a face at me (probably smelt how loud it was whoops)  

They gave me a box filled with old pictures of us together, snacks, a letter im not supposed to read until im in california, and sage to clear the air of negative energy?? but i think she was just cleaning her room out and needed to get rid of it PLSS (the night before we were on ft as she was reorganizing after she came back from her semester in college) 

Im so excited for oregon and california im shaking thinking about it!!! new jersey and the east coast is so negative and fast pace, everybody is out to work and make money instead of living life and enjoying what you have and how long you have it. The negativity was getting to me too, people like to judge heavy out here I can't just be me unfortunately. But hey, I can't complain at all actually, when i first moved out of oregon about 7-8ish years ago, right after flying back from a trip to nj/ny for a few weeks, i said i couldn't wait to move out here because everybody had a negative mind your own kind of feel to it. It wasnt all sunshine and rainbow and people weren't passive aggressive or lying to your face in a way so I was excited I thought I was finally gonna live with my kind of people you know??? but eventually shit gets old, people fuck you over, you meet new people, then they fuck you over too, you keep moving along and that's just how it goes 

i've lived in oregon and california before, it what makes me miss it, the scenery, the positive energy, when i wake up in the mornings in oregon the air is crisp and its relaxing/calming. when i wake up in new jersey everything is either irritating me or i want to sleep in more before i have to do something productive. I so badly need that laid back energy again, im not focused on school right now, i spent the last 12 1/2 years in public school and a semester in college. I WANT TO ENJOY TIME OF MY YOUTH, I know the argument that i could enjoy my youth ANNNDD go to school but theres plently of time to go to a 4-year or do 2 at community and then uni. im in no rush but depending on who's reading this might say my writing needs it LMFAOO but fuck you im relaxed. the state of the country right now isnt the best regardless, i know the chances of me getting retirement are low, so i might as well enjoy my life while im young and can move and dance lol IM SO EXCITED THOUGH!!!! i already have friends waiting for me over in oregon hopefully all things go well and i can make some lasting memories.. i feel so known though, ive got family in multiple states across the country, and now people/friends in them too. whenever i need to live in any of them i'll have people i know which is a nice thing to have but a person like me who can barely let an instagram story archive without deleting is impressive. 

when you tell people that you're moving out of the state or to the other side of the country they'll act nice and that they'll miss you and kiss your ass. After posting about something along moving to california on my instagram story I had a good portion of nj people swiping up to either act shocked or kiss my ass.. none of those people spoke to me once outside of hs graduation?? fake thats all it is, its a social game, im not mad at it though its what you've gotta play out here. who's got what, and how do you benefit. 

Anyways.. i have to take a shower and cut my hair n shave before i go, i know it'll be a good minute before i get the chance to do my self care sadly lol. Im gonna be lookin real rough the next few days </3 but i know when i get there im gonna be the happiest in a while. 

its been a minute, but i know this is one huge leap i need to take for myself. its the feeling of liberation, driving across the country multiple times as a kid to move state to state sets something in stone for you i believe. Now, staying in a state for too long starts to feel like a burden, or that i need to get out and do something else LIVE LIFE! 

Im excited. I hope somebody out there reading this wishes me the best of luck on my trip. Im making the most out of it, im stopping by some national forests and yellowstone out in the plain states!! im bringing my digital cam too so i can get all types of pics. 

wish me luck, and ill talk to ya'll as soon as i get somewhere and settled. 

keep positive <3 

david

May 5th 2024, 8:57 AM EST 

OH ALSO LMFAOOO when i get the chance im gonna review the dominic fike and willow albums and the drake and metro kendrick future beef LMFAOOAOAJBSDVJ that shit is so dumb but people without things to gossip about feed on moments like this (people without things to gossip about would be me, but thats also a lie i have plently to gossip about)