when will I learn

god I feel sick to my fuckin stomach. i chugged this random girls redbull and i could taste a million lies where her lips touched the can. made me retch and fold and crumple up into a little wad of gum. boy have we got a lot to do today. staring at a million words, writing meaningless ones, and pretending to give a shit when you really could care less if you fail this class (life). I feel like my skull had suddenly turned into a bowling ball, swinging back and forth and following the melodic rhythm of your creaky ceiling fan. Saw you sitting with your friend today. What happened to the rest? why is it that when you stop looking at someone with your rose tinted lenses on, they suddenly become the most hideous monster you've ever seen? yawn.